Rant
I hate bullies. I am feeling bullied again right now. I read once that if you feel you are being bullied, you are.
I also hate people who have no 'adult' setting, and feel that the two groups have a huge amount of Venn diagram-type crossover!
I get bullied at work. This is my space for ranting about it. It's also somewhere for myself and others who are being bullied to share ideas on how to deal with bullies at work.
I hate bullies. I am feeling bullied again right now. I read once that if you feel you are being bullied, you are.
Everything which is born is destined to die. Our very first death is our birth. Before birth we are at one with the mother, safe and nurtured. Our passage into the physical world is an initiation into the human condition of duality and fear. We find ourselves alone, separate from all that had sustained us and likely to die without care and attention...
Transformation and endings are what are indicated when the death card is turned...
When the death card is reversed it symbolises that either the client is stuck and holding on to something which is over, or needs to end, or that something is being ended against their wishes. In such situations the client often recognises their own dilemma yet cannot see a way around the situation. One of the most common scenarios is when someone has a well paid job which no longer satisfies their needs. To end the job would near enough mean financial ruin, yet all the time they hang on to it they are dying inside.
http://www.toniallen.co.uk/death.html
I'm Ms Angry right now. Old issues are re-surfacing and affecting my mood enough that I can't get on with stuff.
It's been a horrible week. Everything has been piling in on top of me and I've felt close to suicidal for most of the week. I even got round to starting to write my suicide note... Don't worry though, I mostly wanted to see what I would write rather than planning to actually use it.
Today I had a student complain to me because I hadn't returned his calls. This is true, I had forgotten to listen to my voicemails for a week or so. Very rightly, he said "What's the point of havbing voicemail if you don't use it?".
I'm pleased to say that my appraisal went far better than I had anticipated. I was still tense and I think that was mutual, but 'puh' and I managed to at least appear to each other to be singing from the same hymn sheet. The targets agreed, though somewhat tight on time, seem achievable and I am hoping there's nothing that I haven't noticed that can come back to bite me on the *ss later...