Card 13 - Death

The 13th card in the Major Arcana of the Tarot is Death. This card holds the following meanings: Change, exposure, transition, termination, inevitability.

My experience of being bullied at work, and the consequences thereof, has reached the 13th card. In March 'puh' finally achieved her goal. I was beaten down far enough that I considered self-harming whilst at work and my distress level was such that I asked to go home. That triggered a landslide of circumstances which have now lead to me facing a choice between resignation or dismissal on grounds of incompetency.


I've become more and more ill over the last year, as the stressors have multiplied. I fought all the time, did everything I could, but I am now too ill to function properly in my old job, or in the job I was redeployed to.

Was I set up? Some days I think 'no, it's just an unfortunate combination of events and circumstances, illness, others I think 'Hell, yes!'. It's irrelevant though.

Card 13, contrary to popular belief, is not about endings, but rather is about change.

Everything which is born is destined to die. Our very first death is our birth. Before birth we are at one with the mother, safe and nurtured. Our passage into the physical world is an initiation into the human condition of duality and fear. We find ourselves alone, separate from all that had sustained us and likely to die without care and attention...

Transformation and endings are what are indicated when the death card is turned...

When the death card is reversed it symbolises that either the client is stuck and holding on to something which is over, or needs to end, or that something is being ended against their wishes. In such situations the client often recognises their own dilemma yet cannot see a way around the situation. One of the most common scenarios is when someone has a well paid job which no longer satisfies their needs. To end the job would near enough mean financial ruin, yet all the time they hang on to it they are dying inside.

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Discussions held recently with friends have revolved around 'letting go'. I've hung onto the edge of the cliff for so long. I'm utterly depleted. Fear has kept me clinging on to something that's really of no value to me any longer. Time to let go and trust that the Universe will catch me.



Above image courtesy of Avia Venefica